a mustard seed of faith

eighteen and living my heart out for Jesus
Planetshakers City Church

He’s staring at you from Calvary. Right now.

- This was inspired by Dr. Tony Campolo -

According to the Laws of Physics, the faster something is moving, the more it bends time. Technically if you travel fast enough, you bend time itself, as you’ll experience less time than everyone else who isn’t travelling at your speed. This only happens as you close in towards the speed of light. Travelling at the speed of light is impossible itself, because you’d have infinite mass by doing so. By all human means, that’s impossible. The only one possible of doing so, to any understanding or belief, would be God. And if God can travel at the speed of light, that means He’s ever present, bending and standing outside of time. Hence He’s also omnipresent too. At all times, He exists. At all places, He exists.

The biggest challenge we have to face from this is understanding that, right here, right now, Jesus is staring at you from that cross on Calvary. Every sin you commit in the present, past, or future, is being thrown onto Him, right now. It’s not that Jesus died for all our sins. It’s that every sin we commit adds makes Jesus hurt more, right now. Every sin you commit, Jesus flinches in pain again. But it isn’t physical pain that’s hurting Him. The average person was crucified for 48 hours, but Jesus was only there for 6 hours. Jesus could bear the pain. What He couldn’t bear was turning into the exact opposite of everything He stood for. At that very moment, He turned into every mass murderer, robber, liar, pedophile, anything you can think of that makes you cringe on the inside. Jesus because that. And every sin you commit, is going to make Him worse.

So, maybe it’s time to get rid of the mentality that “Jesus already died for all the sins I’m going to commit, so I can just do a few more.” No. He’s staring at you right now. On Calvary. In pain. And what are you doing?

His pain, our gain

It happens everyday to someone you know. It’s never the same, but it occurs over and over again, everyday without doubt. Someone gets a bad grade. Someone asks someone out and gets rejected. Someone falls over and grazes their knee. Someone gets cancer.

Pain, albeit physical or emotional. Disappointment. Brokenness. Sadness. When pain comes, our worlds start to tilt over. It confuses us, tips us off balance. Disarms us, depresses us. Pain makes us mad. It’s a huge fog that falls over our lives and stops us in our tracks. We get mixed up, bleary, hazy, bewildered.

This all happened to Jesus. In Matthew 26:36 and onwards, Jesus is arrested and abandoned by his friends. He was in such emotional pain that he prayed “Father, if it’s possible, let this cup of suffering be taken away from me. But let your will be done rather than mine." Throughout these moments, he was in more physical pain than anyone else has ever been through. Yet he survived it all, and then conquered death. 39 stripes he received, 1 below the certain death amount. 39 stripes he conquered, one for every category of disease known to man. He knew that he only had to endure this once. That this time, once and for, he would endure all the pain, for all our gain.

So next time you are in pain, remember what Jesus did for us. Bring it to him. He can endure it. When you bring your pain to him, he understands it. After all, he’s been through it all.

Listen Up

2 Chronicles 36:14-16
"… but they mocked God’s messengers, despised His words, and made fun of His prophets until the Lord became angry with His people. He could no longer heal them."

Bright yellow and orange striped T-shirts and piercing whistles at the beach. Blue and red flashing lights on top of the most recognisable siren in the world. These get our attention, whether they be road signs, lifeguards or police officers. But sometimes, for others, it’s not as easy for us to get someone’s attention like they do. But these people have a common desire to make your life more pleasant and safer by looking out for you and doing what they know is best.

That’s how God cares for His children. Because He knows what is best for us, having already laid down our paths before we were even born. He patiently shows us how to live. The people in 2 Chronicles 36:14-16 just didn’t get it. No matter what God did to get their attention, they turned their backs to Him. They didn’t just ignore His messages, they mocked his messengers and made fun of His spokespeople. The sad point of the story was that God actually didn’t want to give up on them, but they gave up on Him. God gave us free will for us to make the choice to form a relationship with him or not. And a relationship is a two way road. He can only do so much to call out to you, but it’s your choice whether you respond. In the end, God’s people missed out on His healing.

Could God be trying to get your attention? Are you listening for Him? Maybe He’s moving through your parents, your pastor, your friends, not just His voice directly to you. Don’t push your luck and miss out on His healing. He really wants you to get it.


Ezekiel 28:20-26

"My parents won’t let me do anything for my birthday this year."
Imagine that. Your parents don’t let you invite your friends over, or go out and hang with them. That’d be the worst birthday ever. Wouldn’t it? It totally isn’t fair, right? Here’s a hypothetical.

Josh was angry. “My parents won’t let me do anything for my birthday this year,” he complained. “All I want is to invite a few friends over for a pizza and a movie; it’s not much is it?”
Janelle listend to Josh and tried not to smile. She knew that Josh’s parents were actually planning a surprise birthday party for him, bigger and better than just a pizza and a movie. “Man, that sucks,” she replied.
"It’s not like I’m asking to invite everyone I know over."
"Yeah that doesn’t seem fair. Hey, I, uhm, gotta go now. I’ll catch you after school."

Janelle left in a hurry. Whew, that was close. Trying to hide a surprise party is hard. Keeping the secret is even harder. But it’s the surprise that makes it amazing. It’s the surprise that makes it worth the wait. But they had to work behind the scenes to make it work. Max would look back and understand why his parents were being ‘unreasonable’.

God works behind the scenes too. He plans and organises our lives path without us knowing. Heck, He’s already planned it all. We may not always understand what He is doing or planning, but eventually, if we are patient enough to walk through it all, at the end we maybe, just maybe, will be able to see the whole picture. It’s like walking through canyon, and all you can see are the huge rock walls around you. But eventually, when you’ve exited and risen above the canyon, you’ve see the vastness that you’ve walked through in all its amazingness. So trust God. Even if things seem out of time, or out of place, just have the faith to keep walking with Him.

desperate giving, desperate worship

Not your standard offering message.
Ecclesiastes 3:1
To everything, there is a season, A time for every purpose under heaven:
Most, if not all of us here, are Christians. We attend Church and Urban Life weekly, constantly receiving from God. That is our time for receiving. But there is also a time for us to give, through time, love, money and prayer. As new Christians, we constantly put ourselves into a position of receiving, but I believe that as our roots deepen further into our beliefs, and we strive further enrich our faith and relationship with God, we have to start putting ourselves into a position of giving. The position that you place yourself, the atmosphere or environment that you create around yourself, sets the tone for what will happen. A position of receiving allows us to reach out, to desire something, but a position of giving allows expectation, forcing desperate worship.
Mark 10:46-52 (Amplified Bible)
Then they came to Jericho. And as He was leaving Jericho with His disciples and a great crowd, Bartimaeus, a blind beggar, a son of Timaeus, was sitting by the roadside. And when he heard that it was Jesus of Nazareth, he began to shout, saying, “Jesus, Son of David, have pit and mercy on me now!” And many severely censured and reproved him, telling him to keep still, but he kept on shouting out all the more, “You Son of David, have pity and mercy on me now!” And Jesus stopped…
Desperate worship is type of worship that makes Jesus stop. I personally feel that when I put in a large offering, I put myself into an atmosphere of expecting something amazing to happen, through the sermon that is going to be preached, or the God moment that I expect to occur. A position of expectation forces an atmosphere of desperation. So how desperate are you for that breakthrough, that miracle, that blessing? Sometimes, we can be so desperate, but we don’t know how to make Jesus stop and realise “Oh, that blessing that I was going to give to you in few months time, I see that you want it now. So here it is.”
What’s great about the Urban Life giving is that we know it goes to the PlanetBoom bus service. Sometimes we give, and we don’t know where it goes. One of my former youth pastors used to think that behind every church pulpit or stage there was an service lift that went up to heaven, but it was only for the offering. But what’s amazing is that we know that it goes directly to bless the next generation.
I want to finish with one of the most amazing testimonies I have every heard. It was 1934 in Charlotte, Northern Carolina, and there was a series of revival meetings being lead by Mordecai Ham. All the seats were taken in the meeting, and the ushers were told not to let anyone else into the meeting. There was a 16 year old boy who walked by. He had been told about the revival meetings that were going on, and was curious as to what they were about. It was already the middle of the sermon, the meeting was nearly over. The ushers that the boy came across told him that there were no seats left. As the boy was about to leave, one usher grabbed him, and told him to wait. The usher ran throughout the building, searching and searching, and eventually found a chair for the boy. That night, the boy gave his life to Christ. His name was Billy Graham. If you don’t know who he is, over then next 68 years, he’s lead over 3.2 million people to respond to his altar calls. His lifetime audience over radio and television broadcasts top 2.2 billion people. All because one usher went out of his way, in an act of desperation, giving his time away from Mordecai Ham’s sermon, for the possibility that one 16 year old boy would maybe, just maybe, give his life to Christ that night.
So I encourage you, maybe in an act of desperation, to receive your own blessing, or maybe even to unknowingly bless someone else’s life, to give tonight.
I was asked to prepare this message for our Urban Life group within Planetshakers Church. Thanks guys for giving me the opportunity to share this with you!

I’m back!

Hey guys, it’s been a while since I posted on Tumblr. But I think it’s time I started again. Honestly, blogging the messages that come into my mind really do help me move forward in my Christianity, so I’ve come to a point where I really want to pursue greater things. So I’ll be blogging as often as I can now; let’s go.

Just to update you all, I’ve moved to Melbourne now, and am attending Planetshakers City Church. I’m in the most amazing Urban Life group, and they compel me to stride forward even further than I have ever imagined.

“If God is drilling into your life, let Him continue. He knows where all the oil is.”

—   Pastor Geoff Woodward

“Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. (Romans 8:37 NKJV)”

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